how would you feel if the person that you had basically been dating for the past two months tells you that they aren't dating anyone and they aren't necessarily "talking" with anyone but they have been looking around and have met a few people then turn around and tell you that they care about you......you say that if you meet someone you don't want it to get in the way of our friendship because you do care about me...i say i don't want it to either... you ask "if i'm ok"....i say "yeah" you ask "are you sure" i say "yeah" all the while tears are streaming down my face.....you say you will talk to me later when things calm down...and give your usual (K)...i do the same and you leave.....how am i supposed to feel about all of this......i'm pissed because well i guess i get jealous....i'm sad because i can't be with you....and i'm depressed because it's starting to seem like you don't want to be with me at all......you say this is why you started having second thoughts about getting "too" involved or "too" attached before you left.....then you say "but on the upside you don't know if anything could happen with anyone you met" like it's supposed to try to make me feel any better.....well guess what it didn't.....you said your scared of long distance relationships because have what happened with your other two that you had because one of them she got really hurt.....and you don't want to hurt me like that.....well guess what i'm scared of a long distance relationship too but for you i would try to make it work.....yes it would be hard but i don't care i would try......i can't explain how i feel when i'm with you....laying under the stars with your arms wrapped around me......i told you something that night that i have only told a few people.....when i'm with you i feel like i can say anything and not get hurt.....and not have to worry about what you think because you been through some of the same things....i would give anything to be with you right now....

i might not love you but i care about you more then i have cared about anyone in a long time

[On my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything but I won’t give up]

my fingers keep going numb

this probably isn't a good sign

 

the one day i actually watch TRL i end up seeing 3 people in the audience that i know

how crazy is that

[maybe who you're lookin' for is...
Somebody in the next car
Somebody on the morning train
Somebody in the coffee shop
That you walk right by everyday
Somebody that you look at
But never really see
Somewhere out there is somebody]